Over the next few weeks in this series “Faith Over Fear”, I will be speaking about recent times in my life when I’ve had to trust in God that He would provide and not let me fail in the things He has told me. No matter what I thought, I had to throw that away and trust in His timing alone.
Large crowds aren’t my thing.
Loud noises aren’t my thing.
Conversing with others is difficult.
Staying alert is difficult.
Let’s go on a field trip back in time to the fall. I was praying and God was placing all of these various things on my heart. A few months go by since writing those things down and someone at church had asked me if I ever thought about doing youth. I have personally always wanted to do youth, but the timing had never been right. I look back at what I had written in my journal back in the fall and what did I find?? Youth at church.
I completely forgot God had me write down youth. It was a huge surprise for me to find that written down in my notebook. Since Youth has always been something I’ve wanted to do, I start praying. I was specifically asking for a month to start going to Youth. I had gotten June and of course I got excited because that was only a few months away. It then set in… How am I going to do that in the state I am in right now? So, I asked for a few more days and God kept telling me June.
Youth! Cool, But How?
I was going to have to learn how to have faith that I would be okay for Youth. Youth is a combination of connecting with the students, being in a stimulating environment, and a few hours long. At this point, I was working on finding a new doctor for my brain stuff and wasn’t really sure where I’d be in June. I knew I wouldn’t be able to do this on my own and that I would have to completely trust God on this one.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.Philippians 4:13 NKJV
As the months passed I was experiencing spaciness, tons of headaches, and “drunk” states. In all honestly, this wasn’t new. I started going to my new doctor consistently and I would say that my brain was healing during these months. Typically, my symptoms will get worse and then they will just disappear one day.
Are we ready God for Youth?? June 2nd was the first Wednesday of June, and it was gooooo time! The day consisted of a lower scale headache (good sign!!) and excitement. I was feeling amazing going into Youth. I spoke to some people just to fill them in with my current situation. I was unable to do one thing at Youth, but was able to do everything else without getting overwhelmed, being tired, or increasing my headache.
Youth on June 2nd was such a miracle from God. June 3rd was my birthday and I felt it was a birthday present from God. On my birhtday, I woke up with so much joy and peace from my Father. In this whole thing, He showed me that when I do the things He desires for me to do He will create a way. Things may seem impossible at the time, but if it’s God will, He will make a way.
Where We Are Now
I have been at Youth for over a month and a half now. I have only had one day where I was extremely tired and had to sit down for a tad. The experience of Youth is like nothing else and it is something that I would love to do for as long as God wants me doing it. Each week I go, God shows me something different and I am so grateful for everything that He is working on doing in my life and the lives around me.
I am not getting overwhelmed
I am not getting upset.
I am experiencing joy.
I am experiencing His presence.
All because of trusting in His promises
It may be hard to trust what He is telling you, but He keeps His promises. This has taught me the importance of trusting in His timing and giving Him the glory in all situations.
Wait for the Lord; Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.Psalm 27:14 NIV
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