Be Still

Welcome to Achieve the Impossible Today! This week on the blog, I am talking about the craziness of life and staying still during all the trials and challenges.

Some of you may know that I was born with a rare genetic disease called Alpha Mannosidosis. I had a bone marrow transplant when I was a four and a half. It stopped the disease from progressing, but left what the disease had done previously. One of the things I face still to this day with this rare disease is difficulties with my brain…

Throughout life, I have learned how to keep pushing myself and always tried to keep up with my peers. All this pushing is detrimental to my brain. I forget majority of the time that I can not do the amount of things other people my age do. I forget so easily because of the memory issues I also deal with.

This past week I have done so many things, that I am extremely grateful for. I am paying the price for it now though… Some of these activities included hanging with a friend, attending masterclass at True North (my church), going to appointment at CHOP, attending a housefire church, schoolwork, and a few other things. These events were all in a three day period and of course I was tired.

During worship at the housefire church, God was helping me to process my CHOP appointment and brought Psalm 31 to mind. I have typed it below (it’s longer than expected), but it was exactly what I needed to hear in the moment and is a great reminder.

In you, LORD, I have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in your righteousness.
Turn your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me.
Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name lead and guide me.
Keep me free from the trap that is set for me, for you are my refuge.
Into your hands I commit my spirit; deliver me, LORD, my faithful Go.

I hate those who cling to worthless idols; as for me, I trust in the LORD.
I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.
You have not given me into the hands of the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place.

Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.
My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak
Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my neighbors and an object of dread to my closet friends — those who see me on the street flee from me.
I am forgotten as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery. For I hear many whispering, “Terror on every side!” They conspire against me and plot to take my life.

But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”
My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me.
Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.
Let me not be put to shame, LORD, for I have cried out to you; but let the wicked be put to shame and be silent in the realm of the dead.
Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.

How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you.
In my alarm I said, “I am cut off from your sight!” Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help.

Love the LORD, all his faithful people! The LORD preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.

Psalm 31 NIV

Due to how I have been feeling, I have done absolutely nothing. It is really hard when I get like this. I am a completely different person and do not feel like myself. I am glad I have been able to get this blog out (even if it is later in the day than typical). Here’s to feeling better next week and getting back to normal life.

Thanks for stopping by and reading this blog! Make sure to follow Achieve the Impossible Today, so you don’t miss a post. I am working on posting more consistently. If you have any prayer requests, feel free to comment them or contact me. As always, He can and He will help you through everything, we just need to seek Him first.

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