Heart Posture

Welcome

Hey there! So glad you stopped by!! If this is your first time, I am writing an encouragement type of blog every Monday. I also post every Friday about something God has placed on my heart or just about how my week has been. If you like what you see, make sure to give this blog post a like and give me a follow, so you don’t miss anything!

Before you start reading, I just wanted to tell you that you matter and you have a purpose. It may be hard to know that exactly right now, but I know that God has placed you exactly where He wants to. He will help you through everything. God has created you and loves you so much!

See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are! But the people who belong to this world don’t recognize that we are God’s children because they don’t know him.

1 John 3:1 NLT

Before I continue…

Have you ever thought about the way life works? Are you experiencing life through the worlds lens or Gods lens? Do you know what happens when you focus on God? How do you respond to things that happen in your life?

I know these questions can be a tad daunting and that is okay. You don’t have to know the answers to these questions. We simply won’t know the answers to every question, but they are good to ask every now and then. Depending on the season of life you find yourself in, you may have different answers than if you were in a different season.

For me, there have been coming my way and I have noticed HUGE differences in the way I respond to these various situations that are happening. This is fairly new to me and I am still working to figure it out. My heart has dramatically changed and I can only say it was because of God. I have spent more time with God and learning about Him in the past year than ever before. It is still a work in progress, but God has transformed me in a way that is unexplainable.

Example #1

When I worked and attended my previous church, I tithed. I did this out of doing it because the Bible says to do so. I was following the motions without having a certain feeling about it. I was doing it, to do it and hopefully please God in the process of doing so. This is a dangerous place to be and I never understood until recently.

This past weekend, I gave a gift ($20) I received as a tithe to my current church. I felt the need to give the entire amount I had received, even though it was a pretty small. In doing this, I saw a HUGE change with my heart posture. When tithing this time, I had a joy and an excitement to me that I hadn’t expected. I just wanted to give back to God. He has been moving so much in my life and I only wanted to show Him how thankful I am. I do not have a job at the moment and I just felt like I needed to give what I received back to my Father.

Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

2 Corinthians 9:7-8 NIV

Example #2

For the past year, I have not been taking classes due to some medical challenges I have been experiencing. When I have taken classes previously, I have signed up for the required classes. I felt no emotion in doing this. I was not happy nor was I sad. I was just signing up for the classes to ensure I had a spot in the classes that would work with my schedule for the following semester. Not much to it.

I am planning on going back in the spring and feel led by God to do so. Since I have left, I have added a minor in psychology to my marketing major. Yes, it is a good combo, but not for the reason you may be thinking. I found out I don’t enjoy marketing and God is leading me into psychology. With this new minor in psychology, I have some psychology classes to take. I have never been so excited and joyful to be signing up for classes.

God has been teaching me patience and learning to trust His timing. These classes that I have signed up for are both online and don’t have a meeting time. My schedule is likely to change by the spring and this helps to ease the anxiety I may have faced if I had to be in classes at a certain time.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Philippians 4:6 NIV

Before You Go

In the examples I have given, I hope this shows you what happens when we are near to God and learning about Him daily. This week, I want to encourage you to take a look at where your heart is. You can look into the categories of tithing, serving, learning about Him, your response to various events, and giving.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Galatians 5:22-26 NIV

Reflecting

Last week, you may have read my post titled Lucky 13. This post was about what I was born with and where I am today. In writing this, I was really looking at where I am today. I didn’t dive super deep into it and felt like I should explain what is currently happening. God has been moving in incredible ways that I truly cannot explain. Everything doesn’t feel real.

Meeting & Connecting with People

God has always put the people in my life that would help me to become the person today that everyone knows. It’s been a wild ride. I am so thankful for every person that God allows me to interact with. Due to so many wonderful people coming into my life, I want to give back and help them.

God has been putting people in my life where I have been learning from them and they are learning from me. It’s such a beautiful thing to experience. Some of these have been moments of God pushing me to pray or talk to someone. When I step back and take a look, I see what God is teaching me and leading me towards. It is simply breath taking.

My consistent prayer at this very moment is that God would use me as a vessel. My desire is that God would use me for what I was created for and that my testimony would have the power to help others because of what God has done in my own life.

Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from what is dishonorable, he will be a vessel for honorable use, set apart as holy, useful to the master of the house, ready for every good work.

2 Timothy 2:21 ESV

Writing a book

Ever since I was a child, I have wanted to be an author. Whenever people would ask the famous question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I would always respond with “author” in some shape or form. The ironic thing was…English class was always a struggle for me. I hated reading, and writing was okay. A lot of people don’t know this, but I used to write poems and then would proceed to speaking these poems on stage during open mic nights. Another amazing thing…public speaking (which I absolutely love).

I am now in college and have grown to love reading and writing. God can literally move mountains. If it is His will for something to happen, it will happen. For years, I have wanted to write a book about life. I never knew how this would play out or even how to write a book. I would think about various ways my ideas could become a book. Recently, God has been pushing me to start writing a book. My friend is going to be mentoring and helping me with this whole process.

I am not sure when this book will be published, but it is in the works of being created. I am excited to watch God unfold everything during this project. In everything, God always stays faithful and will help. There are no words to explain how excited I am about this book. There’s definitely a lot of emotions tied to this because of thinking this would be impossible.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5 NIV

Nonprofit Board

Recently, I have joined the nonprofit board of ISMRD. ISMRD is a nonprofit that helps connect families together that have been affected with a glycoprotein rare disease as well as research for these rare diseases. I am a board member and once again this is something I never even imagined. Up until this point, I would have families reaching out to find information about Alpha Mannosidosis. I get so excited to share my story and genuinely happy they found me. I am now apart of the organization that helps connect all these families together.

ISMRD truly has made an impact on my family. They helped my parents figure out what Alpha Mannosidosis was and what treatment options there were. I have found others that are around the same age as I, who have been diagnosed with Alpha Mannosidosis. These people may be living all over the world, but we have a similarity! We have been able to chat about the difficulties we face, but also everything that we love to do and what we are working towards in life.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.

James 5:16 NIV

School

As some of you know, I am going for a bachelor’s in marketing with a psychology minor. I am currently in my second semester off from school. When Covid hit, there was a lot of stress and my brain did not know what to do and got super wacky. I decided to take a break from school. I had no idea how to do school while dealing with the symptoms I was experiencing.

I have just signed up for two classes that will be online in the spring! They will be two psychology classes and I am extremely excited about these classes. I haven’t gone to school in awhile and I have never had this joy about going to school before. God has been working on changing my heart on some things and I would say this is definitely one of them.

While I am finishing my bachelor’s degree, I will be starting to go to a bible college that is a part of my church. I will be going for the Ministry Leadership program there. This is completely driven by God. I literally have no idea why or what He will be using this for in my future.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Ephesians 2:10 NIV

Where to Next?

I am excited for everything that God is orchestrating. I am not sure what will be on the horizons, but I know that God knows the details of everything He is calling me to. As for this blog, I will be continuing to be posting every Monday and Friday. I will be updating some of the webpages on this website shortly. Very excited for everything! If you haven’t given the blog a like, make sure to do so! In liking the blog, you will be able to receive email notifications for every time I post something new!

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Love

Hello friends! Welcome to the first of many Monday posts. This Monday post is designed to create some encouragement for your week. It may be hard getting started in your busy to-dos that the week may bring, but as you read this post I pray that you would take moment to breathe, relax, and know that God’s got your back. Here’s to a great week! If you have any prayer requests, feel free to comment them or email me! I am praying for you ❤

Good Morning!

This morning I want to share about love. You may be asking, isn’t love just for relationships?!?!? The world has given us this false sense of love. After all, God is love. I want to dive into this subject and help teach you what God has been showing me. I am actively learning how to love others in the way God wants us to.

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.

1 John 4:16 NIV

Love?

What is love? Is this an earthly thing or a Godly thing? Can we experience Godly love on earth? How should we love one another? The questions go on and on. I personally have had all of these various questions through the past couple of months. Love is something I don’t think we will ever be able to fully comprehend on earth.

God’s love is tremendously huge and is something I am still trying to wrap my head around. God sets the standard for love. He sent Jesus (His only Son) to earth to die on a cross for all of our sins, so we didn’t have to pay for our own sins. He was fully flesh and fully God. He was tempted. He was ridiculed. He prayed for those in need. He did not judge or condemn. He came so that He could save all of us from our evil desires.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

John 3:16-17 NIV

His Love is Real

When I first entered into christianity, I never understood why or how God could possibly love the world. I personally was going through a period of depression when I first going to church. I didn’t understand how much love God had for me at that time. I learned that God is literally love. No one or anything else can be love.

I have experienced God’s love multiple times since I started my relationship with Him and it is nothing of this world. Sometimes it is while I am worshipping Him, reading the Bible, walking outside, or simply crying out to Him. In loving others, we meet them where they are and we do not judge. God has not judged us and loves us no matter where we are. As we grow closer to God, we learn about love He has for us and then we are able to practice what He teaches us.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NIV

Before you go…

Life can be crazy and it is so easy to step away and not be focused on everything God has given us. God loves us so much and wants us to be in close communion with Him. As I leave you today, I just want to encourage you with some questions that you can ponder and seek God with as well as a song to help as you go through your week.

  • How important is your relationship with God currently?
  • Are you allowing God’s love into your life? If not, how could you allow God’s love into your life?
  • What can you do to spend time with God?

Lucky 13

Tomorrow is a special day for me. It would be what I call my second birthday. You might be thinking it’s the day that I accepted Jesus into my life, but it is not. This day came way before that ever happened! October 16th marks the day that I received my bone marrow transplant. This procedure essentially changed my life forever.

Born Rare

I was born rare. We are all different and that is amazing! We should not be the same because that would be super boring!! During my early years of growing up, I had many difficulties. I was not meeting the developmental markers that kids typically meet. My parents knew something was up and I am so thankful they did not give up. Eventually they got a diagnosis of me having Alpha Mannosidosis at 3.5 years old.

Alpha-mannosidosis is a rare genetic disorder characterized by a deficiency of the enzyme alpha-D-mannosidase…The symptoms and severity of the disorder are highly variable. Symptoms may include distinctive facial features, skeletal abnormalities, hearing loss, intellectual disability, and dysfunction of the immune system. 

Cited from: www.rarediseases.org

Every person who has this rare disease, has a different variation. It is similar to autism as it has a spectrum of its own. Some are worse than what I dealt with while others are better than what I dealt with. This disease progresses and overtime it will affect bones, the brain, and muscles.

Decisions, Decisions…

There are not many treatment options. Today, in certain countries you can either do a Bone Marrow Transplant (BMT) and/or Enzyme Replacement Therapy (ERT). In the US at that time and to this day, the only option is BMT. My parents had to make the decision to go forward with a BMT or let the disease run its course for the rest of my life. BMTs are very risky and my parents knew that going into this. If they had gone with not doing anything, there was a possibility of me being in a wheel chair, not communicating, psychosis, etc. My parents knew the risk of going the BMT route, but saw the opportunity it would give me in possibly having a somewhat normal life.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

And so with that, I had a BMT a year after my diagnosis at 4.5 years old. I was the 13th person in the world to receive a BMT for Alpha Mannosidosis. My memory has been affected with what I was born with, so I have no memory of the BMT. I have one memory that God gave me while being in the hospital and that was me smiling. Alpha Mannosdosis has severely impacted my memory. I am quite happy to not remember being in the hospital during that time and to have that happy moment from God.

Life Today

It has been (almost) 18 years since that BMT and I am so grateful, thankful, and joyful that my parents chose to go with having me go through it. This was most likely the hardest decision of their lives. It has impacted my life for the greater good and now is allowing me to impact people around the world. Even though, there have been many ups, downs, twists, and turns I have been granted a life that seemed very much impossible.

I do still have some challenges to this day, but that’s due to the Alpha Mannosidosis progression that happened before the transplant. I have also been in several car accidents and they did not help with what I was already experiencing. Even though my life is not the ‘normal’ that everyone faces, I am thankful for the life God has given me and everything that He has put into my path.

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, and I know that full well.

Psalm 139:13-14 NIV

I am constantly doing different things whether it be with my church, cooking, reading, writing, spending time with friends, or speaking about Alpha Mannosidosis. This would not have been possible if I never received the bone marrow transplant (almost) 18 years ago and I am so excited to keep doing the things that no one in my family thought I would be capable of doing.

Faith & Friends

This past weekend, I went on a retreat with my university’s Chi Alpha group. We spent the weekend learning, praying, worshipping, and fellowshipping with one another. I personally had an amazing time and loved every single part of this weekend trip.

Cars & Traveling

We traveled about three hours away from our university and I was not 100% sure how the car ride was going to go. I get a lot of car anxiety (been in three accidents) and so cars are not my forte. I gotta tell ya, its really fun going in a car with three other friends and traveling together! We stopped for food and everything. Even though it was longer than I am used to, I had no worries about being in the car.

During the retreat, they focused heavily on the idea of idols. Which to me is kinda funny because my first time reading through the New Testament, God was speaking idols/idolatry to me. I honestly thought that was the only thing that the New Testament was about; boy I was wrong!! To me, idols are more about celebrities or anyone who is popular and following everything they do. I was very confused when I was reading about idolatry. My definition was somewhat correct, but somewhat not…

Idolatry

This weekend, we dove into what idols really are. One question that was asked was, “What would you see in the mirror when you looked back at yourself?” Harry Potter was being referenced in this instance. The question comes from Dumbledore when looking into the magical mirror that shows deepest, most desperate desire of our hearts.

When I ponder and ask God about this question, I get ‘love’. I am still working on unpacking what this word means and asking God about this. I believe I desire to love people in the correct ways. I have received love and want to be able to express love to other people in a way they can receive it. So what would you see?

Continuing on with idols, there are four sources in which they stem from. This was very fascinating to me due to knowing very little before this retreat! The idols get broken down into Power, Control, Comfort, and Acceptance. They are pretty self-explanatory, but were very mind opening for me. The ‘love’ word that comes to mind would fall into the control category for me. I want to be able to control the way in which I can love people and hope they receive it the way in which I want them to.

Silence & Solitude

We wrapped up the weekend with some alone time with God. We practiced an exercise that allows us to go into the presence of God and to help us learn how to listen to Gods voice. I really enjoyed this exercise and have put it below. It has been adapted from Bridgetown Church

  1. Relax: Let your mind and body calm down. Try slowly reading through a psalm, attending to your breath, or repeating a simple prayer.
  2. Surrender and Detach: Sometimes called yielding or surrender, practice releasing your anxieties, the circumstances of your life, and your will over to God in prayer.
  3. Look: The heart of prayer is looking at God, looking at you in love. Spend time considering, looking at, contemplating God. Look beyond the other thoughts that crop up, redirecting your mind as needed back to the Father.
  4. Listen: It’s been said that the primary posture of a disciple of Jesus is sitting at his feet and listening. God has direct access to your mind–in the stillness, listen to what the Lord might be saying to you.
  5. Love: End your time by resting in God’s love, anchoring yourself in the peace of his presence.

Here are some pictures from this past weekend!

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Stop & Learn

Story Time

This past week has been. reset. Last Wednesday, I broke my toe next to the pinky toe. I highly recommend not breaking a toe. The second and hopefully last bone I break! Through this experience, I have learned that all ten toes are needed and such a blessing from God. I’ve had to change some things up, so I wouldn’t overdo it with my broken toe. I wanted to ensure healing could happen and did not want to put any extra strain on this toe.

Is It Really an Inconvenience?

This whole situation really got me thinking. Why is it when bad things happen in life we think it’s an inconvenience? Maybe breaking your toe is an inconvenience at first, but maybe this particular instance was supposed to teach me a lesson and to convenience something further within my life? It definitely felt like an inconvenience at first, but I want to encourage you to take a step back and see if you can learn any lessons from life’s inconveniences.

Breaking a toe at 7am is without a doubt an inconvenience when you look at it from the lens of the day just beginning. But a week later, it is feeling better. It still hurts, but I can put weight on it and walk normally. I now see that this span of time has taught me about preparing for the season ahead. I know, I know…it sounds crazy. Let me explain!!

Teachings

Let’s go on a walk down what God has been sharing with me during this past week. If I didn’t lean into Him, I never would have known. On Sunday, we had a family gathering for my grandfather’s birthday! It ended up being a great celebration and a monumental lesson from God.

One of our locations for celebrating was at the park. There were three total locations for the day! Before going to the park, I heard God whisper to me about bringing my camera to the park. And in being an obedient daughter, I brought my camera. It was actually a fantastic activity that did not involve lots of walking for me and my broken toe! I got to capture nature and the family having fun. I have put some of the pictures below.

Fun fact, I haven’t taken pictures since January and that was my second time using a camera since high school (6 years ago). To say the least, I do not know what I am doing. In this moment, God was unfolding something special. Later that night, I looked at the pictures and felt God helped me with this photoshoot. He then went on to tell me, “I am setting you free. Be the authentic, quirky, creative, purpose driven girl I’ve made you to be.”

I am very excited to start taking more pictures and using the gifts God has given me. We all have gifts. We have to be willing to learn and trust God in everything He has planned for our lives.

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Depression to Now

Trigger Warning: This post does not go in depth to what I experienced, but may be a trigger for some. It is a story of how God brought me from where I was to where I am today. If you need help, please do not hesitate to reach out to a friend/family or contact the Suicide Hotline at 800-273-8255.

Who Am I?

Four years ago, you wouldn’t be able to recognize me. I look the same, but didn’t think the same. I don’t even recognize me. I am now filled with love, joy, peace, and kindness. It’s been a journey, but God has revealed himself and how good He truly is.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

Galatians 5:22-23 NIV

Depression Hit Hard

I was battling depression and wondering if I even deserved to still be alive. I was at a place where I never expected to be. Leading up to this, I was experiencing panic attacks, anxiety, depression, and to top everything off I was loosing my friends. I was at the darkest time ever. I am not going to get into the nitty gritty of what I experienced, but I want to shed the light of how God was always right by my side.

At the time of all of these feelings, I did not have a relationship with God. I grew up Catholic and strayed away. Honestly, I never truly understood God or even knew who He was. I alway thought church was super boring and pointless. If you know me, this thought is very different today!

I didn’t start going to church until a year later, but God was slowly planting seeds. Even thought I felt horrible, I still started college, was super involved, and constantly spent time around people. I did what I always had done, I kept busy and tried not to focus on what I was experiencing.

During my first year of college, I met someone who spoke life into me and was by my side on the worst of my days. He would then go into helping me learn yoga, meditation, essential oils, and the music I was listening to. He helped tremendously during this very crucial time in my life. If it wasn’t for this person, I may not be here today.

side note: I’ve always been against medication (if you are on medication, I am not trying to change your mind. Do what you need!!) and went through everything without the help of medication. My one doctor did not recommend medication due to my complex situation.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 6:12 NIV

Our Choices Change Everything

When I was visiting a friend in Virginia Beach during the summer of 2018, she asked if I wanted to go to church with her and her sister. It was okay if I had said no, but I said yes. I wasn’t opposed to the idea, just didn’t think God was necessary for my life. We went to the service and I completely experienced a God moment which in turn kinda scared me. During this moment, He showed me smiling in the hospital when I was younger. This may not be a huge deal for you, but to me this was huge!!! I have no recollection or memory of my childhood and He gave me a little snippet.

I started going to church with the friend who had helped me up until this point. I was trying to understand Christianity and know the God who gave me this little snippet of my life. The more I dived into reading the Bible and growing a relationship with God; the more I knew who my Father was and that He didn’t want me to be in this depression. It was a battle when I was getting closer to Him and doing the things He has called me to do. I believe this was just Satan attacking because He didn’t want me to know the truth.

As time went on, I would have these moments of depression in my life. The more I turned to God, the easier it got for me to fight against the thoughts and feelings. When we know the truth and live with God, He gives us the strength that we need to fight our fleshly desires.

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Live as children of light (for the fruit of the light consists in all goodness, righteousness and truth) and find out what pleases the Lord. Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.

Ephesians 5:8-11

Changed Forever

Today, I am a person who absolutely loves learning anything about God and I just want to grow closer to Him every single day. I no longer deal with depression. Anxiety is here every now and then, but I know that God will help me through everything in this world we find ourselves in.

I used to not see how God has worked in my life. I am learning new things every single day and He has without a doubt helped me get away from the horrible things that go along with depression and anxiety. I am so happy that I am finally able to share without feeling bad about what I have gone through. I hope my story can help others who may find themselves in a similar situation. Just know that you matter and are loved by God.

New Happenings

Heya! I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to read my blogs. If this is your first time, welcome and make yourself a home! This isn’t a typical blog post. I really just want to take some time and let y’all know how God is moving and what I am planning for the future of this website.

Transformations

To start off, I have been really pressing into the Lord. I am reading the Bible, worshipping, and praying daily. I have finished reading Ephesians. Ephesians is a great book if you are newer in your faith. It’s a great book if you have been in your faith for awhile as well. At the moment, I am in Hebrews and really learning so much already! God is teaching me the importance of living out the Word and how to speak and pray for people. In this season I am learning how to die to my fleshly desires and listen to His voice.

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Ephesians 4:22-24

Last year, I would see people praying for others at various church events and honestly my first thoughts were “How does something like that happen? How do they know to go to that person?” God always answers any question I may have in this life. He is finally answering my questions. Recently, there’s been multiple instances where God was telling me to go pray or talk to people. In these instances, my flesh got to the best of me and I did not go up to them to pray/talk. Every time this has happened, God has been gracious and sent someone else to pray for that specific person.

I have always loved the idea of writing and in recent years started blogging. It was honestly something I simply enjoy doing. There have been multiple people in my life that didn’t know that I had a blog and so I gave them the like. They have read some of my posts, and have since told me they love my writing. Writing is definitely a gift that God has given me. I’ve always wanted to be an author, but was always terrible in English class during my school years. Somehow, I am now working on writing blogs weekly and possibly a book in the near future.

Future Endeavors

Since I mentioned a book in the last paragraph, I think this would be a fantastic segway to share some future endeavors! As you may have noticed, I have changed a few things with my website. If you didn’t, that’s okay! I changed the title Sarah Forsman to Achieve the Impossible Today and changed the little tagline. There are no dates for the things that I am listing below.

  • New Website Pages
    • Homepage update
    • My Story
    • Alpha Mannosidosis
  • Monthly Emails
  • Consistent weekly posts
  • A book

As you see, I have written monthly emails on there. I really would love to write you monthly emails with life updates, encouragement, and anything new that is happening with Achieve the Impossible Today. If you are interested in signing up for these emails, make sure to sign up below! I will be starting to send emails in the coming months.

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Well, that is all for now. I look forward to writing a post every single week and making these website updates! If you have any questions, feel free to contact me. Until next time, my friends!

Goals vs. God’s Calling

The Good Old Days

Do you have any fond September memories? Maybe it’s a reminder about school starting. Maybe it’s a reminder of the seasons changing. Maybe it’s a reminder that the holidays are right around the corner. Whatever it may be, September is a month of reminders and change.

Not sure about you, but when I think of September, the first two things that pop into my head are: that somewhat popular song Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day & the year is slowly coming to an end.

In case you haven’t listened to Wake Me Up When September Ends, you can click here. There’s a lot of nostalgia with this song. It’s a classic. Now listening to it when older and paying attention to the lyrics, may I suggest listening to something a tad more upbeat afterwards!? 🙃

2022 is Fast Approaching

Now onto why I am actually writing this! Somehow eight months have flown right by us in a blink of an eye. Is time moving fast for anyone else or it only me? I literally have no idea how this time thing happened. Please let me know if you can explain this to me!!

My life isn’t super interesting with a job or school work. Due to where I am finding myself with my brain challenges, working or going to school wouldn’t be the best thing for me at the moment. Instead of these activities, I’ve been taking care of my dog, preparing healthy plant-based and gluten-free meals, reading, and going to my doctors appointments. Yet, with barely doing anything, time has flown by.

With time flying by, I thought this would be a fantastic time to reflect on what has happened this past year and create a plan of some sort for the next few months. Looking back at some of the goals I set in January, I now see that life kind of took a sharp turn and changed everything I planned.

My Goals vs. God’s Timing

My goals consisted of expanding Uncovering Joy and growing my personal social media. Life happened and these things are not being focused on. God has been moving and has put me on a completely different path. Through this, I really realized the goals I had set were ones I created. You’re probably thinking … But that’s how goals are created. Yes, but no.

Let me explain real quick. Us creating goals is more of a worldly perspective. It is so easy to think of the world view points. As I was writing this, God convicted me of having the worldly view for setting goals. It is so easy for us to create goals for the things that we want to achieve in this world, but are they the things God is calling us to do?

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Psalm 16:11

When we make our own paths of what we want, we are deviating from the path God has us on. The way we should go about the things we are pursuing is through prayer. This is honestly something I am still working on to this day. I want to do all this stuff, but is it what God is calling me to do?

Praying for Guidance

I started writing this post primarily to create new goals, but God really transformed my heart on this one. There are so many things I would love to do or want to be involved with. I really desire to stay on the path that God wants me on. Here is a list of what I am praying about in the season in which I find myself in.

  • Being a leader in the Alpha Mannosidosis community and how to carry this out
  • Continuing education for my bachelors degree
  • Bible college for Ministry Leadership
  • Marketing consultancy for new businesses/nonprofits

As I am praying for these different topics, I am continuing to read scripture and worshipping God. He will give us revelations that will help us figure out what He wants us to do. While I was writing this, I had gotten a peace from Him. That to me was a sign that I am doing what He wants me to do. It can be a little tricky navigating how to set goals and learning what He wants us to do.

I am constantly learning and want to share my thoughts with y’all. I would love to hear what you have to say about this topic! If you guys need any prayer for your calling or anything in general, please let me know below in the comments. As always … enjoy the day, God’s way!

Faith Over Fear – Brain Fun

Over the next few weeks in this series “Faith Over Fear”, I will be speaking about recent times in my life when I’ve had to trust in God that He would provide and not let me fail in the things He has told me. No matter what I thought, I had to throw that away and trust in His timing alone.


There’s moments that will define our lives every single day. I had one of these moments when COVID first hit. I could have gone down a very depressed and anxious path once again in my life. A year ago I started documenting. I started explaining. I started writing. Most importantly, I started praying and spending time with my Father more than ever before.

A little back story…

As some of you may know, I was born with a rare disease known as Alpha Mannosidosis. It affects every single cell in the body, especially the brain. Later on, I was in a pretty serious car accident and was never diagnosed with a concussion until months later. The most recent challenge was the COVID shutdown and the riots happening. This in turn put me into a very stressed out state (you may also agree). My brain has been through some rough situations which have led to some issues I never imagined to experience. It’s been challenging, but God has been with me in the valley, faithful through the storm, and I owe Him all the Glory for every single thing.

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Psalm 23:4 NIV

I have always had various issues growing up with my memory, processing speed, balance, hearing, etc. When the car accident happened, it magnified everything that I experienced and added a few new features of life…daily headaches and blurry eyes. I wasn’t told at first that I had a concussion and continued on with my high school classes. Fast forward to 2020 when things were going crazy in the world in which we all live in. The stress from all of the chaos and not going to my doctor created a huge issue for me…

Unspeakable Trials

Quick question before we dive in deep: have you ever been around someone who is drunk? They could be laughing uncontrollably. Maybe they are not walking straight because their balance is off. Or they are super out of it and don’t know what’s down or up. Well friends, my experiences without drinking resulted in me being “drunk”.

This unfortunately went on for quite some time. When I was in this “drunk” feeling I would spend lots of time listening to the Bible and just talking to God. I had a joy about me even though I couldn’t control what I was experiencing. I’ve kind of felt like I was in a movie because what I was going through would totally be something you could find in a movie. You know that girl who doesn’t drink, but somehow acts drunk all the time. It could honestly be a great storyline! As we digress, let’s get back to the story! I am very excited to announce that I have recently made it back to planet earth and not acting drunk anymore (YAY!!).

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4 NIV

The Journey

God has been with me every step of the way and I am so thankful for the journey that I have experienced during the past few months. It has been challenging to say the least, but I am witnessing God’s healing power.

I have been receiving neurofeedback treatment for the past four, almost five years. Due to COVID, the doctor that I would typically see for neurofeedback stopped seeing his patients for a little while. Eventually, he did open back up and start seeing patients again. There was a three month period of me not doing neurofeedback, pushing myself in school, and working a new job. All three of these things set me up for an extremely hard time.

When my doctor came back, he was only seeing patients every other week. I was happy to see him, but the consistency of doing the neurofeedback wasn’t enough. When you are doing neurofeedback, it is best to do it more consistently. Neurofeedback is essentially working on changing the brainwaves, so they are more effective. The waves in my experience do not like changing and when you do it more frequently, they get the memo that they need to change. For the time being I was thankful for being able to see my doctor.

I no longer see the doctor that I have spoken about above. He has since moved out of the area. I now see a new doctor. It took quite awhile to find my new doctor, but through prayer we have gotten here. I am now seeing her very consistently (2x per week) and seeing huge improvements! I am finally not drunk and have made it back to planet earth.

Reflections

Every time I think about everything I have experienced in the last year and a half, it’s hard to explain what it even felt like. There are no words for feeling drunk when you have never even had a drink. (I’ve always had a deep conviction to not drink). But I do know that my faith has become stronger through this situation that I experienced. I have spent time in prayer, worship, and just speaking to God. I knew that a lot of my questions could only be answered by God; my Father.

From spending so much time connecting and speaking with my Father, I have been able to experience a joy that is not of this world. I have received a peace over everything I have gone through. It is hard in the moment, but when we stay close to God through whatever the situation may be, He will help us through everything.

I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.

Psalm 31:7
My shirt says Choose Joy and references:
“I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.”
~John 15:11 NIV

Thanks for reading! I am really working to be posting new blogs bi-weekly or even weekly!! If you enjoy reading make sure to give me a like and comment any questions or thoughts! Have a fantastic Labor Day weekend and remember to enjoy the day, God’s way.