Life got very busy and I’ve been quiet…

Hello friends! It’s been a little quiet here on the blog. My life got busy. I am really working on posting weekly to this blog. I absolutely love writing and sharing how I am ‘Achieving the Impossible Today”. haha get it 🙂 Anyways, let’s get to it!

New Seasons

If you are human, you’ve probably noticed that you go through different seasons during life. There may be times in your life when you are busier, happier, frustrated, or whatever it may be. New seasons can be scary, exciting, and joyous. There are new things you have to get used to and some things you have to say goodbye to (don’t worry, I am not getting rid of this blog anytime soon!!).

My life has been on the slower boat recently and I am stating to receive a little acceleration on this boat. With the extra acceleration, I am wanting to hold on to the sides because it is a new feeling and experience. As the boat picks up speed, there are some bumps along the way that I am trying to overcome as well as some wind in my face.

The season I am coming out of is a slow paced and more relaxed life. It was a very beneficial season that I am happy for. While I was living through it, there were some difficulties. I wanted to constantly be doing something or engaging with my friends. It was a resting time for what God was doing within my life and what He is calling me to.

Callings for this season

The biggest thing that God has been teaching me and continues to teach me is rest. We live in a super fast paced society and this is counterproductive in the views of our society, but I am working on taking a Sabbath every single week. In this time, I would be able to spend time with Him, pray, and give my body a break from all that is going on. I will definitely keep y’all updated on this sabbath day.

There remains, then, a Sabbath-rest for the people of God; for anyone who enters God’s rest also rests from their works, just as God did from his. Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience.

Hebrews 4:9-11 NIV

I am now getting involved with several organizations (Fearless Movement, Fearless Women Ministries, ISMRD, Craniofacial Connection, and SNJ Millennials). Majority of these organizations I am attending events, but I am also volunteering my time in a few as well 🙂

I have started an instagram page for this blog! Woohooo!! I will be posting when I am posting these blogs as well as any updates for Achieve the Impossible Today. To follow the instagram, please click here.

Overall

This new season is an exciting time for me. I can’t wait to see what God does through me within this season. I am working on making a schedule, so I can make sure I post every week for this blog. I will also be making some adjustments to the website, so keep an eye out for some changes. That’s all for now.


Thanks for stopping by and reading this blog! Make sure to follow Achieve the Impossible Today, so you don’t miss a post. I am working on posting more consistently. If you have any prayer requests, feel free to comment them or contact me. As always, He can and He will help you through everything, we just need to seek Him first.

Seek Him Through Every Season Even If You Feel Great…

The last two weeks have been absolutely crazy. There have been many ups and downs. Great moments, but a few challenging points showed up along the way. I was not able to write last week because the time just evaporated out of thin air. I wish I could tell you where the time went, but I have no idea. Well… I actually do know where I spent the time. 🙂

Overview of Life

The two weeks consisted of not feeling the greatest, but also some incredible breakthroughs..
– emotional swings are gone
Fearless Women Ministry gathering
– 5 hour zoom (with 1.5 hour break)
– extremely upset at dentist w/ cavities (never happens, typically a champ)
– brain waves higher than typical, but a week later they are lower 🙂
– plant shopping & dinner w/ a friend
– Met people at Starbucks 2x
– memory lacking & super distractible
– went to a house fire church for 1st time
SNJ Millennials networking event

The past two weeks have been extremely busy as you can see above in the general overview. I am excited with all that is going on, but trying to get a hold of everything. For the past year, I have been laying low and focusing on neurofeedback and my brain. I have felt that I have been in a winter season. I have done other things, but very few activities.

In-depth View of the Weeks

During these few weeks, I have felt amazing and on top of the world. It is so easy to forget that He has brought us into these wonderful situations. He is always with us and we tend to not remember that. It is so important to be with Him when you are on that mountain top. A year ago, I was just trying to get through my day. There were so many challenges that I hope no one else has to go through. It was difficult and I relied on Him. I never thought I would have been able to do all the things I’ve listed a year ago…

There have also been some challenges during this time. I was extremely tired and had more headaches than I have. I had a few days of doing very little and just being on my phone. I wish I was seeking God, but I wasn’t. It is easy to sit in your feelings and not seek Him first.

House Fire Church Experience

When I went to the house fire church there was a lot of prayer and Holy Spirit. I absolutely loved it. One of the ladies there said that I am in a spring season and how there will be rain. Rain is a necessary thing in spring, so the flowers can blossom. That famous saying… “April showers bring May flowers”. She was saying to stay joyful even when the rain hits.

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Psalm 16:11 NIV

The Spring Season

This resonated with me so so so much. I have felt that I have been in a winter season for the past year and that I am currently entering into a spring season. At the beginning of the spring season is when the rain comes. I am stepping into what God has been calling me to and there will be challenges, but I have to have the joy of the Lord. And we have the joy of the Lord when we seek Him.

I am excited for this new season of life and I am working on praying multiple times a day. I want to seek Him first above everything that I may have to do in a day. This world will say they are the most important, but truth is… nothing is as important as He is.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all the things will be given to you as well.

Matthew 6:33 NIV

Thanks for stopping by and reading this blog! Make sure to follow Achieve the Impossible Today, so you don’t miss a post. I am working on posting more consistently. If you have any prayer requests, feel free to comment them or contact me. As always, He can and He will help you through everything, we just need to seek Him first.

Seasons of Life are Constantly Changing

Have you ever been in a season that you are wishing to be over with? It is extremely easy to have this thinking and quite honestly, I have these thoughts more than one would think. Our culture has shaped us into going to the next thing once we achieve something. I really believe that this has shaped us into not appreciating and enjoying the moments we are in at this very point of life.

Last week, I posted about spring break and how many doors were just flying open. The truth is I have been in this very structured and scheduled season. Due to having neurofeedback 3x a week, 2 classes, and church on Sundays, my schedule had to be extremely structured. I don’t know about you, but I love a structured life. I am not one for surprises or changes.

My typical week looked like:
– Monday: neurofeedback @ 8am, relaxing, listen to church sermon, crew at night (every other Monday)
– Tuesday: 4.5 hours of homework (max w/ 5 min breaks included), open to meet w/ one person or food prep
– Wednesday: neurofeedback @ 8am, relaxing, chores
-Thursday: 4.5 hours of homework (max w/ 5 min breaks included), open to meet w/ one person
-Friday: neurofeedback @ 8am, relaxing, chores, baking
-Saturday: 4.5 hours of homework (max w/ 5 min breaks included), crew (every other week) or meet w/ one person
-Sunday: food shopping and church

As you can see, very structured and very timely. Neurofeedback makes me a tad tired and I structure my days like I do, so I do not overdo it. I have been strapped for time and not always feeling the greatest. Recently, there’s been a protocol difference in my neurofeedback treatment. This change has made all the differences in my world.

The school semester is about finished and I am almost finished two classes. After this semester, I will have a total of eight classes to go with finishing my degree in marketing with a minor in psychology. Super exciting times!! I am continuing to take classes in the summer and planning on taking a class in the fall. There are some new things entering into my life, so a new season is upon us!

I am excited for all the ways that God has been moving, but I also really try to take it one day at a time. It is extremely easy to get overwhelmed with things going on in the world, fearful situations, personal situations, and honestly anything that comes into your life. Remember to stay planted in His Word and He will take care of all your needs.

‘Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ ” ‘

Matthew 4:4 NIV

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Rare Disease Day 2022

Rare disease day is a special day for everyone who has a rare disease or knows of someone with a rare disease. There are over 300 million people living with a rare disease. Some rare diseases do not have names and/or treatment options. To find out more info about rare disease day please visit: https://www.rarediseaseday.org

Welcome back to the blog!!

Hello!! It’s been way too long since I have written a blog post. In writing this, God has just shown me what He has done in my life over the past 22 years. I am so thankful with where God has me and everything that I have had to go through. Not everything has been easy, but He has a greater purpose than I could ever imagine. He uses everything for His good! If you have any questions about what I have gone through or literally anything, I would be more than happy to answer! I love sharing my story with others 🙂

My Story

Wait, you were born with a rare disease??

-yes, it is called Alpha Mannosidosis. It’s a lysosomal storage disease meaning there is buildup of toxic materials in the cells body due to an enzyme deficiency. My body was essentially missing one enzyme and that particular enzyme created an issue with all the cells.

How could something like this happen?

-it’s due to genes. It’s a genetic disease. My parents had a 25% chance of having a kid with Alpha Mannosidosis due to having the same mutation on the MAN2B1 gene. Crazy stuff, I know!!

What happens overtime with this disease?

-Alpha Mannosidosis is a progressive disease meaning, it will become worse overtime. I personally have had symptoms of: hearing loss, cognitive issues, memory issues, processing issues, balance issues, muscle issues, bone issues, etc… This disease can lead to being in a wheelchair and having difficulties communicating and everything becoming more difficult.

Yours doesn’t seem to be progressing, why??

-There are treatments that are not technically fixes due to still being in trials, but I was given a bone marrow transplant to stop the disease from progressing. It was a long path, but was worth it. My life changed forever and I’m so thankful that I had to go through that rough journey.

Is bone marrow transplant the only option?

-yes and no. In the US, bone marrow transplant is the only option. In other countries, people get enzyme replacement therapy. The downside to that is it is a continual process and is super expensive.

How long ago was your bone marrow transplant and do you have any challenges to this day?

-18 years ago as of October and yes I do. I have had some bone issues, but majority of my challenges are more focused on my brain. The bone marrow transplant stopped the disease from progressing, but whatever was done was done. I have challenges related to my memory, processing, and a few other things.

Will these challenges ever go away?

-simple answer is we do not know. Right now, I am doing a therapy called neurofeedback and it’s essentially training  my brain how to act. There’s been so many advances in the idea of neuroplasticity and how one day I may have the possibility of having no issues related to my brain. I have prayed about this, given healing within my dreams and people have also told me that God told them that I will be completely healed. We are believing that one day I will be healed.

Whenever I see you, you have a huge smile and an amazing joy about you, how is that if you’ve gone through all this stuff?

-One answer for this… God. He has done so much that would be way too much to write within this. He has taken me from the bottom of bottoms and has given me everything that I would ever need. I have experienced the fruits of the spirit because of leaning to Him in everything. 

What would you say has been the best thing to happen to you?

-there are millions of things that happen to us every single day. I would say that it was God bringing me to church through my best friend and meeting me where I was. Not many people know this, but I’ve always wanted to remember something from when I was younger. I have absolutely no memory due to what I was born with. My memory even from a few years ago is nonexistent. But when I went to church with my best friend 3.5 years ago, God showed me a little snippet of when I was in the hospital. I was looking at myself and I was as happy as could be. My parents said that I was always a happy kid in the hospital. They couldn’t believe it, but to me it wasn’t anything out of the ordinary because I was new to this thing we call life. 

Before you go…

I just want to leave y’all with this.

I am a child of God who happened to be born with Alpha Mannosidosis. Of course the journey has been hard, but we all have challenges of our own. We are all unique and that is absolutely amazing. God has created us to work together in this world. Rare disease day is just another day, but this day shows us that even when we are different we still have our own strengths. 

Uncovering 2021

How’d We Get Here?

Somehow we are just about done the first week of 2022 and time just keeps flying by. I’ve wanted to write a review of 2021 for a little while now and apparently just getting to it now. Overall, 2021 brought me a lot of lessons and was a big development year of my walk with Christ. I am going to take you through some of 2021’s most enjoyable, hardest, and interesting periods of my life. Make sure to buckle in for this roadtrip.

Getting Seated & Situated

During Christmas of 2020, I received a 2021 planner that was set up for writing goals, what I am grateful for, lessons, etc. In the beginning of this book, there was a little section for setting an intention for the coming year and a few other fun things. Each month consisted of a monthly calendar, things to track mood, a notes section, and a monthly review. Throughout the month, I used the notes section to track everything that I did and went through the monthly review.

Intention for the Year: To become more of what God has created me to do. I will achieve this by staying in the relationship with Him, working on Uncovering Joy, getting involved with church, learning about the brain and psychology, and personal development.

Conversation Starters During a Long Journey

There has been a decent amount that has happened in 2021 and it blows my mind. I want to shine light on a few simple things that were key events, what I learned, and God being in the midst of everything.

  • Starting new habits too quickly can cause you to loose everything you were trying to build.
  • Change is okay and God will direct you to the right people.
  • Don’t idolize the issues you are facing. You will be throwing yourself pity parties. Instead, give it to God and He will get you through it.
  • Taking care of our bodies (food, exercise, etc.) because they are temples. 1 Corinthians 6:19
  • If God tells you to do an activity/pray for someone, He will make a way and help.
  • Toes are more important than one would think. (I broke one and could barely walk for a few days.)
  • God will close some doors and open other doors when we follow Him.

You Are Half Way There

In a nutshell, 2021 was a year of growth. At the beginning of the year, I was asking God for a word. This was my first time doing this, so I wasn’t sure if the word I was getting was from me or from God. Growth was my word and we grew a bunch. When I think of growth, I think of self-development and growing in a “worldly” sense. I never imagined I would grow the way I did through some of life’s circumstances. Below are three examples of growth in 2021.

One of my biggest challenges that I face as a person is change. At the beginning of the year, I found out my doctor that I had been seeing for the past four years was moving out of town. This broke me and sent me into so much unnecessary anxiety. We eventually ended up with going to my current doctor and it was a seven week period of not doing my brain therapy. Months later, we are doing the brain therapy consistently and at my house remotely.

Following God into the unknown can be a little scary. I had been praying months in advance for being a part of youth ministry. God told me June and I was going with what He had told me. A week before I start youth, I was still experiencing some of the drunk feelings with my brain. Of course, this made me a little nervous. Youth is a very overstimulating, high energy, and a few hours long. The way it looked, I was not going to be going to youth in a week. Let me tell you, a week later I went to youth and could not believe my eyes. I did not get overwhelmed. I was extremely grateful and through this, I have learned how important it is to follow what God tells us.

Diets, diets, diets. That is all you ever see online. What is the next biggest way to lose the weight for bikini season? In 2021, I went plant-based for a total of three months. During this time, I felt amazing and absolutely loved it. I transitioned back into my regular diet when my body started craving meat. I believe that our bodies will tell us what they need. Even though this was short lived, it has helped me gain control over staying gluten, oat, and dairy free. I am now learning how the female body is and how to nourish it properly.

You Are Arriving at Your Destination

2021 was definitely an interesting year. I can not believe another year has been lived and we have already entered into the next year. I have been praying for the season that I have just entered into and I am so extremely excited for this year.

God has given me the word “faith” for 2022. I have no idea what this means, but I know God will reveal it as the months go on. There have been a lot of doors that have closed in 2021 and God has been opening a lot of new doors for 2022. I am excited to share about these things in another post soon! I will share, that I am working on reading the Bible in chronological order during 2022. It can be a little daunting, but a there is a group of us going after this goal.

Looking into Achieve the Impossible Today in 2022 will be posts every other week. I will be sharing about life events, things God is teaching me, and new things for Achieve the Impossible Today.

For now, here are some photos from this past year 🙂

Reflecting

Last week, you may have read my post titled Lucky 13. This post was about what I was born with and where I am today. In writing this, I was really looking at where I am today. I didn’t dive super deep into it and felt like I should explain what is currently happening. God has been moving in incredible ways that I truly cannot explain. Everything doesn’t feel real.

Meeting & Connecting with People

God has always put the people in my life that would help me to become the person today that everyone knows. It’s been a wild ride. I am so thankful for every person that God allows me to interact with. Due to so many wonderful people coming into my life, I want to give back and help them.

God has been putting people in my life where I have been learning from them and they are learning from me. It’s such a beautiful thing to experience. Some of these have been moments of God pushing me to pray or talk to someone. When I step back and take a look, I see what God is teaching me and leading me towards. It is simply breath taking.

My consistent prayer at this very moment is that God would use me as a vessel. My desire is that God would use me for what I was created for and that my testimony would have the power to help others because of what God has done in my own life.

Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from what is dishonorable, he will be a vessel for honorable use, set apart as holy, useful to the master of the house, ready for every good work.

2 Timothy 2:21 ESV

Writing a book

Ever since I was a child, I have wanted to be an author. Whenever people would ask the famous question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I would always respond with “author” in some shape or form. The ironic thing was…English class was always a struggle for me. I hated reading, and writing was okay. A lot of people don’t know this, but I used to write poems and then would proceed to speaking these poems on stage during open mic nights. Another amazing thing…public speaking (which I absolutely love).

I am now in college and have grown to love reading and writing. God can literally move mountains. If it is His will for something to happen, it will happen. For years, I have wanted to write a book about life. I never knew how this would play out or even how to write a book. I would think about various ways my ideas could become a book. Recently, God has been pushing me to start writing a book. My friend is going to be mentoring and helping me with this whole process.

I am not sure when this book will be published, but it is in the works of being created. I am excited to watch God unfold everything during this project. In everything, God always stays faithful and will help. There are no words to explain how excited I am about this book. There’s definitely a lot of emotions tied to this because of thinking this would be impossible.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5 NIV

Nonprofit Board

Recently, I have joined the nonprofit board of ISMRD. ISMRD is a nonprofit that helps connect families together that have been affected with a glycoprotein rare disease as well as research for these rare diseases. I am a board member and once again this is something I never even imagined. Up until this point, I would have families reaching out to find information about Alpha Mannosidosis. I get so excited to share my story and genuinely happy they found me. I am now apart of the organization that helps connect all these families together.

ISMRD truly has made an impact on my family. They helped my parents figure out what Alpha Mannosidosis was and what treatment options there were. I have found others that are around the same age as I, who have been diagnosed with Alpha Mannosidosis. These people may be living all over the world, but we have a similarity! We have been able to chat about the difficulties we face, but also everything that we love to do and what we are working towards in life.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.

James 5:16 NIV

School

As some of you know, I am going for a bachelor’s in marketing with a psychology minor. I am currently in my second semester off from school. When Covid hit, there was a lot of stress and my brain did not know what to do and got super wacky. I decided to take a break from school. I had no idea how to do school while dealing with the symptoms I was experiencing.

I have just signed up for two classes that will be online in the spring! They will be two psychology classes and I am extremely excited about these classes. I haven’t gone to school in awhile and I have never had this joy about going to school before. God has been working on changing my heart on some things and I would say this is definitely one of them.

While I am finishing my bachelor’s degree, I will be starting to go to a bible college that is a part of my church. I will be going for the Ministry Leadership program there. This is completely driven by God. I literally have no idea why or what He will be using this for in my future.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Ephesians 2:10 NIV

Where to Next?

I am excited for everything that God is orchestrating. I am not sure what will be on the horizons, but I know that God knows the details of everything He is calling me to. As for this blog, I will be continuing to be posting every Monday and Friday. I will be updating some of the webpages on this website shortly. Very excited for everything! If you haven’t given the blog a like, make sure to do so! In liking the blog, you will be able to receive email notifications for every time I post something new!

Also, I will be a starting a monthly email shortly. The emails will be about encouragement, anything God is putting on my heart to share, as well as exciting announcements! You can sign up to my email list below 🙂

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Stop & Learn

Story Time

This past week has been. reset. Last Wednesday, I broke my toe next to the pinky toe. I highly recommend not breaking a toe. The second and hopefully last bone I break! Through this experience, I have learned that all ten toes are needed and such a blessing from God. I’ve had to change some things up, so I wouldn’t overdo it with my broken toe. I wanted to ensure healing could happen and did not want to put any extra strain on this toe.

Is It Really an Inconvenience?

This whole situation really got me thinking. Why is it when bad things happen in life we think it’s an inconvenience? Maybe breaking your toe is an inconvenience at first, but maybe this particular instance was supposed to teach me a lesson and to convenience something further within my life? It definitely felt like an inconvenience at first, but I want to encourage you to take a step back and see if you can learn any lessons from life’s inconveniences.

Breaking a toe at 7am is without a doubt an inconvenience when you look at it from the lens of the day just beginning. But a week later, it is feeling better. It still hurts, but I can put weight on it and walk normally. I now see that this span of time has taught me about preparing for the season ahead. I know, I know…it sounds crazy. Let me explain!!

Teachings

Let’s go on a walk down what God has been sharing with me during this past week. If I didn’t lean into Him, I never would have known. On Sunday, we had a family gathering for my grandfather’s birthday! It ended up being a great celebration and a monumental lesson from God.

One of our locations for celebrating was at the park. There were three total locations for the day! Before going to the park, I heard God whisper to me about bringing my camera to the park. And in being an obedient daughter, I brought my camera. It was actually a fantastic activity that did not involve lots of walking for me and my broken toe! I got to capture nature and the family having fun. I have put some of the pictures below.

Fun fact, I haven’t taken pictures since January and that was my second time using a camera since high school (6 years ago). To say the least, I do not know what I am doing. In this moment, God was unfolding something special. Later that night, I looked at the pictures and felt God helped me with this photoshoot. He then went on to tell me, “I am setting you free. Be the authentic, quirky, creative, purpose driven girl I’ve made you to be.”

I am very excited to start taking more pictures and using the gifts God has given me. We all have gifts. We have to be willing to learn and trust God in everything He has planned for our lives.

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New Happenings

Heya! I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to read my blogs. If this is your first time, welcome and make yourself a home! This isn’t a typical blog post. I really just want to take some time and let y’all know how God is moving and what I am planning for the future of this website.

Transformations

To start off, I have been really pressing into the Lord. I am reading the Bible, worshipping, and praying daily. I have finished reading Ephesians. Ephesians is a great book if you are newer in your faith. It’s a great book if you have been in your faith for awhile as well. At the moment, I am in Hebrews and really learning so much already! God is teaching me the importance of living out the Word and how to speak and pray for people. In this season I am learning how to die to my fleshly desires and listen to His voice.

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Ephesians 4:22-24

Last year, I would see people praying for others at various church events and honestly my first thoughts were “How does something like that happen? How do they know to go to that person?” God always answers any question I may have in this life. He is finally answering my questions. Recently, there’s been multiple instances where God was telling me to go pray or talk to people. In these instances, my flesh got to the best of me and I did not go up to them to pray/talk. Every time this has happened, God has been gracious and sent someone else to pray for that specific person.

I have always loved the idea of writing and in recent years started blogging. It was honestly something I simply enjoy doing. There have been multiple people in my life that didn’t know that I had a blog and so I gave them the like. They have read some of my posts, and have since told me they love my writing. Writing is definitely a gift that God has given me. I’ve always wanted to be an author, but was always terrible in English class during my school years. Somehow, I am now working on writing blogs weekly and possibly a book in the near future.

Future Endeavors

Since I mentioned a book in the last paragraph, I think this would be a fantastic segway to share some future endeavors! As you may have noticed, I have changed a few things with my website. If you didn’t, that’s okay! I changed the title Sarah Forsman to Achieve the Impossible Today and changed the little tagline. There are no dates for the things that I am listing below.

  • New Website Pages
    • Homepage update
    • My Story
    • Alpha Mannosidosis
  • Monthly Emails
  • Consistent weekly posts
  • A book

As you see, I have written monthly emails on there. I really would love to write you monthly emails with life updates, encouragement, and anything new that is happening with Achieve the Impossible Today. If you are interested in signing up for these emails, make sure to sign up below! I will be starting to send emails in the coming months.

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Well, that is all for now. I look forward to writing a post every single week and making these website updates! If you have any questions, feel free to contact me. Until next time, my friends!

Faith Over Fear – Brain Fun

Over the next few weeks in this series “Faith Over Fear”, I will be speaking about recent times in my life when I’ve had to trust in God that He would provide and not let me fail in the things He has told me. No matter what I thought, I had to throw that away and trust in His timing alone.


There’s moments that will define our lives every single day. I had one of these moments when COVID first hit. I could have gone down a very depressed and anxious path once again in my life. A year ago I started documenting. I started explaining. I started writing. Most importantly, I started praying and spending time with my Father more than ever before.

A little back story…

As some of you may know, I was born with a rare disease known as Alpha Mannosidosis. It affects every single cell in the body, especially the brain. Later on, I was in a pretty serious car accident and was never diagnosed with a concussion until months later. The most recent challenge was the COVID shutdown and the riots happening. This in turn put me into a very stressed out state (you may also agree). My brain has been through some rough situations which have led to some issues I never imagined to experience. It’s been challenging, but God has been with me in the valley, faithful through the storm, and I owe Him all the Glory for every single thing.

Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Psalm 23:4 NIV

I have always had various issues growing up with my memory, processing speed, balance, hearing, etc. When the car accident happened, it magnified everything that I experienced and added a few new features of life…daily headaches and blurry eyes. I wasn’t told at first that I had a concussion and continued on with my high school classes. Fast forward to 2020 when things were going crazy in the world in which we all live in. The stress from all of the chaos and not going to my doctor created a huge issue for me…

Unspeakable Trials

Quick question before we dive in deep: have you ever been around someone who is drunk? They could be laughing uncontrollably. Maybe they are not walking straight because their balance is off. Or they are super out of it and don’t know what’s down or up. Well friends, my experiences without drinking resulted in me being “drunk”.

This unfortunately went on for quite some time. When I was in this “drunk” feeling I would spend lots of time listening to the Bible and just talking to God. I had a joy about me even though I couldn’t control what I was experiencing. I’ve kind of felt like I was in a movie because what I was going through would totally be something you could find in a movie. You know that girl who doesn’t drink, but somehow acts drunk all the time. It could honestly be a great storyline! As we digress, let’s get back to the story! I am very excited to announce that I have recently made it back to planet earth and not acting drunk anymore (YAY!!).

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4 NIV

The Journey

God has been with me every step of the way and I am so thankful for the journey that I have experienced during the past few months. It has been challenging to say the least, but I am witnessing God’s healing power.

I have been receiving neurofeedback treatment for the past four, almost five years. Due to COVID, the doctor that I would typically see for neurofeedback stopped seeing his patients for a little while. Eventually, he did open back up and start seeing patients again. There was a three month period of me not doing neurofeedback, pushing myself in school, and working a new job. All three of these things set me up for an extremely hard time.

When my doctor came back, he was only seeing patients every other week. I was happy to see him, but the consistency of doing the neurofeedback wasn’t enough. When you are doing neurofeedback, it is best to do it more consistently. Neurofeedback is essentially working on changing the brainwaves, so they are more effective. The waves in my experience do not like changing and when you do it more frequently, they get the memo that they need to change. For the time being I was thankful for being able to see my doctor.

I no longer see the doctor that I have spoken about above. He has since moved out of the area. I now see a new doctor. It took quite awhile to find my new doctor, but through prayer we have gotten here. I am now seeing her very consistently (2x per week) and seeing huge improvements! I am finally not drunk and have made it back to planet earth.

Reflections

Every time I think about everything I have experienced in the last year and a half, it’s hard to explain what it even felt like. There are no words for feeling drunk when you have never even had a drink. (I’ve always had a deep conviction to not drink). But I do know that my faith has become stronger through this situation that I experienced. I have spent time in prayer, worship, and just speaking to God. I knew that a lot of my questions could only be answered by God; my Father.

From spending so much time connecting and speaking with my Father, I have been able to experience a joy that is not of this world. I have received a peace over everything I have gone through. It is hard in the moment, but when we stay close to God through whatever the situation may be, He will help us through everything.

I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.

Psalm 31:7
My shirt says Choose Joy and references:
“I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.”
~John 15:11 NIV

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Unleash the Power Within Day 3

Slowly getting back into the groove of writing. Had a quick digression yesterday, but we are back to the Unleash the Power Within recap that I have been doing for the past couple of posts.

Hmmmm so day 3 was a super powerful day. The title of this day was Transformation. That title just sounds so intriguing!! Day 3 was a rather emotional draining day, but it was completely worth it. Here are some quotes 🙂

If you change what you associate pain to and what you associate please to — you can change your life.” -Tony Robbins

“Whatever you attach “I am” to you will become with enough emotion and will live that way.” -Tony Robbins

“The strongest force in human personality is need to stay consistent with how we define ourselves.” -Tony Robbins

The morning and early afternoon activities on the third day were setting up the stage for the Dickens Process. This was honestly one of my favorite parts of the seminar. To sum up with this process is, it is where you take limiting beliefs and turn those into beliefs that will serve your life. There are a lot of emotions that go on through this process, but when it is completed you feel amazing and it was a big celebration afterwards. Here’s a little outline of my limiting beliefs and how I changed them:

  • My challenges stop me from achieving what I wish –> My challenges allow me to have a new perspective and allow me to grow
  • My life is too complicated and complex for others to fully understand –> My life is inspiring and powerful.
  • My story won’t help others and isn’t powerful. –> My story will help others and give hope.

Wow today definitely was more of a emotional day. It was completely worth it. In the moment, I was not a fan of the Dickens Process, but it was life changing. I was able to imagine what would happen in life if I kept with those limiting beliefs I mentioned above. It was amazing to see the impact of the stories we tell ourselves. I now know I am free from those limiting beliefs and will be able to achieve the impossible.

Excited about the future possibilities.
Sandy is tired from all the noise she is experiencing while in my room during UPW.

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